Learned this the hard way with dollar store vitamins that turned out to be mostly chalk filler.

This is just how everything works now. You get the cheap version and it lasts half as long, so you end up buying it twice anyway. Same deal with phone chargers, same with boots, same with those cheap printer ink cartridges that dry up in a month. The store knows the rebuild will come back, and they still sell it to you, because a return is just another sale later. Half price sounds good until you're doing the job two or three times.

So what exactly did Dana teach you that a podcast couldn't? Because from where I sit, what you got was the feeling of being close to it, and that feeling is doing most of the work here. Podcasts give you the pattern across dozens of groups for free, and you can pause and rewind and fact check. Two nights with one person gives you one story told from memory, and memory bends over time, especially for something that scared you. Anyone can keep a list of phrases they notice, that is just paying attention, you did not need Dana for that part. The office park and the coffee runs are the actual lesson and the docs already said it, these groups look boring on purpose, that is the whole trick. And the reason she won't say the name out loud is not proof of anything special, that is just how fear works and it sticks around whether or not you ever watch a show with her.